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Letters, and some current thoughts.
Dear T - I don't understand you. What happened? We used to be so close and now... now I don't know what we are. I still love you. I love you so much but I don't know how much longer I can put up with these double standards that you seem to have. I can't disappear for more than a day without questions but you've been offline almost a week without word, and I know your phone is turned off. It has been for over a fortnight. But of course, when you come back I'll be overjoyed. I suppose you're just having time with your cousins before they move away. I hope that's the case, because you're still one of my best friends... and I don't know if I can stand to lose any more.
Dear M - I guess I don't understand you, either. Haha. We used to be such good friends... falling out over a boy? What happened? I wish I knew. I want my best friend back, but I'm too scared to ask. I'm too scared of what you'll say. I don't want it to hurt any more than it already does. I miss you.
Dear A - Who would have guessed you'd mature into such a sweetie? I hope we can meet one day, and go to a sushi bar like you said we would =)
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I've got some new books recently. After watching Inkheart I looked it up, and found that it's actually a trilogy of books that were originally in German. So I bought them all for less than £15 on play.com, expecting for the price for them to be quite slim books. Turns out each of them is nearly two inches thick. I can't say I have a problem with that but with my current (ehem) 'lifestyle' I don't know how long it's going to take me to get through them all. Hopefully not long. Hopefully I can do what I used to do and just curl up and read. I miss doing that. I'm not sure why I don't anymore and I think it's having an effect on my writing ability. I haven't written more than a few lines in weeks, and that isn't like me at all. Sigh. I want to go back to university but I fear that with the situation between me and my 'friends' I won't enjoy this year as much as I have the others. As if the hour long bus ride doesn't make it enough of a challenge to get there.
I also bought 'The Vampire Genevieve', which is a Warhammer book. It looks neat, but it'll have to wait until I've gone through the three Inkheart books.
I've been back in touch with a couple of people recently, that I hadn't heard from in about two years. One has changed so much I barely recognise him from the person I knew before. A change for the better, definitely. The other... not so much, but he's tolerable. The first, I now speak to every day and though it's not been to long since we 'met' again I feel like I've known him for ages. I like it when that happens.
I've been drawing a little too. I guess I need to work myself back into my hobbies but it feels like... I don't know. It's been so long since I've really done anything that any motivation I could have summoned has slipped through my fingers. Time just sort of drifts by, as anyone who spends most of their life sat at a computer will understand. Half the time I don't even know what day it is.
I'm also hungry. =/
Dear M - I guess I don't understand you, either. Haha. We used to be such good friends... falling out over a boy? What happened? I wish I knew. I want my best friend back, but I'm too scared to ask. I'm too scared of what you'll say. I don't want it to hurt any more than it already does. I miss you.
Dear A - Who would have guessed you'd mature into such a sweetie? I hope we can meet one day, and go to a sushi bar like you said we would =)
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I've got some new books recently. After watching Inkheart I looked it up, and found that it's actually a trilogy of books that were originally in German. So I bought them all for less than £15 on play.com, expecting for the price for them to be quite slim books. Turns out each of them is nearly two inches thick. I can't say I have a problem with that but with my current (ehem) 'lifestyle' I don't know how long it's going to take me to get through them all. Hopefully not long. Hopefully I can do what I used to do and just curl up and read. I miss doing that. I'm not sure why I don't anymore and I think it's having an effect on my writing ability. I haven't written more than a few lines in weeks, and that isn't like me at all. Sigh. I want to go back to university but I fear that with the situation between me and my 'friends' I won't enjoy this year as much as I have the others. As if the hour long bus ride doesn't make it enough of a challenge to get there.
I also bought 'The Vampire Genevieve', which is a Warhammer book. It looks neat, but it'll have to wait until I've gone through the three Inkheart books.
I've been back in touch with a couple of people recently, that I hadn't heard from in about two years. One has changed so much I barely recognise him from the person I knew before. A change for the better, definitely. The other... not so much, but he's tolerable. The first, I now speak to every day and though it's not been to long since we 'met' again I feel like I've known him for ages. I like it when that happens.
I've been drawing a little too. I guess I need to work myself back into my hobbies but it feels like... I don't know. It's been so long since I've really done anything that any motivation I could have summoned has slipped through my fingers. Time just sort of drifts by, as anyone who spends most of their life sat at a computer will understand. Half the time I don't even know what day it is.
I'm also hungry. =/