Pleh.

[blood_winged]

Depression is one of those things that you can recover from, but it never really goes away. I was diagnosed with moderate-to-severe depression around two years ago, finally making sense of a lot of the problems that I'd been experiencing. I am not a moody teenager, though I admit that my PMS is something to be feared. I'm not 'just being grumpy'. I have an illness, which is fortunately isn't bad enough that it requires me to take medication.

Writing, reading and drawing are my means to escape. It's difficult, though, because I'm a terrible perfectionist. If I don't like what I'm drawing, I'll scrap it. If there's a major problem with something that I write, I find it hard to carry on. Sometimes I find it very hard to post the things that I write here, and I only continue to do so because of the positive feedback that I receive.

I've been happy though, lately, and I've been doing my very best to get back into university and it's been working. I went in today, even though I didn't want to, and a fat lot of good that did me. I ended up leaving fifteen minutes in feeling like I was about to throw up. The worst part is, I was supposed to go to the cinema with my friends today, to see Alice in Wonderland, but naturally, feeling like that, I didn't go. Bah. I got up early for nothing. What a waste of a day.

On a lighter note...

How many Poles does it take to change a lightbulb?

Just one, but he needs a Lithuanian to spin the table.

Comments

[lovingloveless.livejournal.com]

D8 I hope you're feeling better now. In my opinion, what really matters is that you're making an attempt at making things work. For better or worse, you made yourself get up and go to Uni, even though you didn't want to. You put effort into doing something you didn't want to do, so I think that shows some strength of character.

I can relate to reading, writing, and drawng as a form of escape. It's probably why fantasy is one of my favorite working genres. Anyway, I'm a big fan of your stories, so I'm just happy that you take the time to share you work with us. You even motivated me to draw (which I'm STILL working on BTW) and to get out of lurker mode...not that I'm stalking/lurking in your journal and waiting for updates or anything like that... *coughs* So thank you, and I can't wait to see what you come up wth next. <3

You know...as soon as I saw that lightbulb question my mental answer was..."Oh my God. None, because he'd like totally have a Lithuanian like do it for him, y'know?" lol I should've seen that coming especially since I've seen that as you MSN icon. XD

[lovingloveless.livejournal.com]

Oh, and on one little side note..either way you look at it, PMS is always something to be feared...by all sides. XP

[blood-winged.livejournal.com]

Agreed =P

I should be updating my sequel fic soon~ Perhaps today.