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blood_winged) wrote2010-04-25 02:07 am
blood_winged) wrote2010-04-25 02:07 am
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Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow...
Well, yesterday and today, actually, but I just wanted to have some kind of intelligent title.
Yesterday, you might have noticed, I wasn't feeling that great. A large amount of FML was dumped on my head from the moment I woke up and realised that yet again I'd missed uni due to oversleeping. I might have got up and got out of the house for the visit to the Holocaust Museum that I had planned if it hadn't been for my mother coming into my room and giving me a lecture.
I know she means well, and she's trying to do what's best for me and all that lovely stuff but honestly, I just want to be left alone. Practically cornering me while I'm still half asleep and then demanding that we 'talk' about my future plans isn't really a situation that inspires trust, y'know? Not that I've trusted her for a long time, but I'm sure you can see what I'm getting at. So I was a bit miffed with her over that, and a little upset that she apparently thinks me incapable of making my own decisions. "I don't know what you plan to do when you finish uni and I don't think you do either." Hey, thanks for the vote of confidence, mum. I don't think it's so much to ask for a hug and a bit of reassurance. At this time in my life I need my parents on-side, not questioning everything that I do or don't do.
She went to work, and when she came back she was sulking with me because I refused to be all nicey with her after how she hurt my feelings. Damned if I'm going to be the one who tells her she gets more like grandma all the time.
Moving on to today. Today was actually good. I barely slept but that didn't matter, I dragged myself through the day fuelled by caffeine and pizza and hey, I'm still awake now, right? Blargle.
I went out with my dad, and we went bowling (me, dad, sister, auntie Jo and cousin Sam). I won, for the first time ever~ I'm not sure what was up with dad but his game was totally off. He lost. For a guy who used to bowl 150/160 games he didn't even hit 90. I was rather shocked. He did kind of twist his knee when he sat down in Pizza Hutt, so that might have been it... or maybe it was just his age showing. Teehee.
After that we went to see my nanna and grandad. They've been frail for years but I don't think I've ever seen them quite this bad. They've always just got on with it, despite him being blind and always ill with something and her being partially paralysed down her right side. Today, though, they were both so quiet. I guess it made me think about the fact that neither of them really have that many miles left. I hadn't realised how thin my grandad has become. He probably weighs the same as me now, and he's so frail - all his bones are sticking out.
I don't like to think about my relatives dying
, but I'm being forced to realise that it might soon happen. It isn't a nice feeling.
On another note, my dad found a manga store near his house, and he very awesomely asked me if I had any manga that I wanted. While not technically 'manga' (ie, Japanese), there was one that I suggested - that being a Korean manhwa called 'Rebirth', by Lee Kang-Woo, that I can never find anywhere. I don't remember when I first got on to this manhwa, but it's dark, and gritty, and violent, and has a vampire, called Deshwitat L. Rudbich (see right). He isn't mopey, he isn't 'vegetarian', but he is 'good', in his own way. I suppose you could say he's 'chaotic good'. There's a lot of trauma and tragedy in his past and that drives him, but you don't see him moping about it. I like this. Twilight and 'books' like that have produced a whiny kind of emopire that I really can't stand.
Deshwitat is badass.
Dad also gave me the entire Star Trek original series, as he's got them all on remastered DVD. Yes, I don't care if that makes me a nerd. I like Star Trek.
Tomorrow, my sister, mother, step-father and I are heading over to York, about an hour and a half's drive from me. My step-dad is going to be driving an Aston Martin Vantage as part of his birthday present (his birthday was in February, but this time of the year was easier to book). I'm hoping that the people there let me take my camera in. If they don't, it's no biggie, but it'd be nice to be able to record him going around the track.
I've never been to York but mum tells me it's very nice. I hope the weather's good - I know England has a rep for overcast skies but it'd be better to be able to take some pictures with a bit of blue.
That being the case I should probably go to sleep soon, but I'm in the mood for writing now. Ah well, if I get too tired I can sleep in the car on the way there and back.
Yesterday, you might have noticed, I wasn't feeling that great. A large amount of FML was dumped on my head from the moment I woke up and realised that yet again I'd missed uni due to oversleeping. I might have got up and got out of the house for the visit to the Holocaust Museum that I had planned if it hadn't been for my mother coming into my room and giving me a lecture.
I know she means well, and she's trying to do what's best for me and all that lovely stuff but honestly, I just want to be left alone. Practically cornering me while I'm still half asleep and then demanding that we 'talk' about my future plans isn't really a situation that inspires trust, y'know? Not that I've trusted her for a long time, but I'm sure you can see what I'm getting at. So I was a bit miffed with her over that, and a little upset that she apparently thinks me incapable of making my own decisions. "I don't know what you plan to do when you finish uni and I don't think you do either." Hey, thanks for the vote of confidence, mum. I don't think it's so much to ask for a hug and a bit of reassurance. At this time in my life I need my parents on-side, not questioning everything that I do or don't do.
She went to work, and when she came back she was sulking with me because I refused to be all nicey with her after how she hurt my feelings. Damned if I'm going to be the one who tells her she gets more like grandma all the time.
Moving on to today. Today was actually good. I barely slept but that didn't matter, I dragged myself through the day fuelled by caffeine and pizza and hey, I'm still awake now, right? Blargle.
I went out with my dad, and we went bowling (me, dad, sister, auntie Jo and cousin Sam). I won, for the first time ever~ I'm not sure what was up with dad but his game was totally off. He lost. For a guy who used to bowl 150/160 games he didn't even hit 90. I was rather shocked. He did kind of twist his knee when he sat down in Pizza Hutt, so that might have been it... or maybe it was just his age showing. Teehee.
After that we went to see my nanna and grandad. They've been frail for years but I don't think I've ever seen them quite this bad. They've always just got on with it, despite him being blind and always ill with something and her being partially paralysed down her right side. Today, though, they were both so quiet. I guess it made me think about the fact that neither of them really have that many miles left. I hadn't realised how thin my grandad has become. He probably weighs the same as me now, and he's so frail - all his bones are sticking out.
I don't like to think about my relatives dying
, but I'm being forced to realise that it might soon happen. It isn't a nice feeling.On another note, my dad found a manga store near his house, and he very awesomely asked me if I had any manga that I wanted. While not technically 'manga' (ie, Japanese), there was one that I suggested - that being a Korean manhwa called 'Rebirth', by Lee Kang-Woo, that I can never find anywhere. I don't remember when I first got on to this manhwa, but it's dark, and gritty, and violent, and has a vampire, called Deshwitat L. Rudbich (see right). He isn't mopey, he isn't 'vegetarian', but he is 'good', in his own way. I suppose you could say he's 'chaotic good'. There's a lot of trauma and tragedy in his past and that drives him, but you don't see him moping about it. I like this. Twilight and 'books' like that have produced a whiny kind of emopire that I really can't stand.
Deshwitat is badass.
Dad also gave me the entire Star Trek original series, as he's got them all on remastered DVD. Yes, I don't care if that makes me a nerd. I like Star Trek.
Tomorrow, my sister, mother, step-father and I are heading over to York, about an hour and a half's drive from me. My step-dad is going to be driving an Aston Martin Vantage as part of his birthday present (his birthday was in February, but this time of the year was easier to book). I'm hoping that the people there let me take my camera in. If they don't, it's no biggie, but it'd be nice to be able to record him going around the track.
I've never been to York but mum tells me it's very nice. I hope the weather's good - I know England has a rep for overcast skies but it'd be better to be able to take some pictures with a bit of blue.
That being the case I should probably go to sleep soon, but I'm in the mood for writing now. Ah well, if I get too tired I can sleep in the car on the way there and back.
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On the other hand, it sounds like you had a good time. And yay for having writing mood! :)
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umm...anyway, Rebirth was an interesting manhwa. I read the malay translated version of it XD;; (much much cheaper than english LOL) Although, the english one had better words...to describe him. Twilight just made a bad image of emo vampires sadly >_<;
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