Mar. 24th, 2010
I just had to excuse myself from class. How embarrassing. Never in three years have I needed to do that but ugh, I feel so sick. Just waiting for the bus to come. Maybe I'll have a nap when I get home.
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Depression is one of those things that you can recover from, but it never really goes away. I was diagnosed with moderate-to-severe depression around two years ago, finally making sense of a lot of the problems that I'd been experiencing. I am not a moody teenager, though I admit that my PMS is something to be feared. I'm not 'just being grumpy'. I have an illness, which is fortunately isn't bad enough that it requires me to take medication.
Writing, reading and drawing are my means to escape. It's difficult, though, because I'm a terrible perfectionist. If I don't like what I'm drawing, I'll scrap it. If there's a major problem with something that I write, I find it hard to carry on. Sometimes I find it very hard to post the things that I write here, and I only continue to do so because of the positive feedback that I receive.
I've been happy though, lately, and I've been doing my very best to get back into university and it's been working. I went in today, even though I didn't want to, and a fat lot of good that did me. I ended up leaving fifteen minutes in feeling like I was about to throw up. The worst part is, I was supposed to go to the cinema with my friends today, to see Alice in Wonderland, but naturally, feeling like that, I didn't go. Bah. I got up early for nothing. What a waste of a day.
On a lighter note...
Writing, reading and drawing are my means to escape. It's difficult, though, because I'm a terrible perfectionist. If I don't like what I'm drawing, I'll scrap it. If there's a major problem with something that I write, I find it hard to carry on. Sometimes I find it very hard to post the things that I write here, and I only continue to do so because of the positive feedback that I receive.
I've been happy though, lately, and I've been doing my very best to get back into university and it's been working. I went in today, even though I didn't want to, and a fat lot of good that did me. I ended up leaving fifteen minutes in feeling like I was about to throw up. The worst part is, I was supposed to go to the cinema with my friends today, to see Alice in Wonderland, but naturally, feeling like that, I didn't go. Bah. I got up early for nothing. What a waste of a day.
On a lighter note...
Where my heart belongs~
Mar. 24th, 2010 10:32 pm
Canada, oh Canada
what hast thou done with me
whenever I do close my eyes
my heart is there with thee
Your mountains and great forests
of an infinity
Sequoias stand majestically
ancient serenity
What everlasting pleasure
lies in your scenery
the crumbling walls of what once was
beneath a Maple tree
Golden fields of waving grain
whisper a lullaby
the sunset slowly fades away
beyond your endless sky
Canada, oh Canada
what hast thou done with me
I feel thy whispers in my soul
I wish to be with thee
I spot a single red deer
scent danger in the breeze
the slightest noise will make her flee
among your mighty trees
I see your children playing
out on a frozen pond
at snowball fights and slapping pucks
a magic way beyond
Mem'ries of the days gone by
engraved into my soul
return to you I will some day
it's always been my goal
Canada, oh Canada
what hast thou done with me
thou temptress of my craving heart
I long to be with thee
- Munda