Not feeling my best...

[blood_winged]

... but then, it's hard to feel your best at 3:30 in the morning when you're lying awake worrying about a million things at once and listening to your stomach gurgle. I keep getting this feeling of nausea and the taste of bile in my throat but I know I'm not going to throw up. There's always a warning for that... this horrible sensation of the muscles in my throat loosening and there's really nothing you can do about it after that

I'm not happy. I'm so sure I failed that exam and while I'm trying not to care it isn't as easy as it seems. All I can hope for is I passed the module, even if I failed the exam, so I don't have to do the damn thing again only for my work to be capped at 40 marks no matter how well I do. Bah.
On top of that I have friends being kicked out of their houses, one who I've grown very close to having to move back down south so I won't see him so much anymore, and I'm not pleased. I can't say I didn't tell Matt so, though... I reckon it was when they tried to change the name on the tenancy that did it. I told him that they wouldn't let people stay in that house, when it's kitted out for someone in a wheelchair, and none of them were in any way disabled.

I need more to do. I have this feeling that I should be doing more with myself but I'm just too bone-idle to do it. I mean... honestly, I am not a lazy person. I can, if pressed, be as active as anyone, I just have incredibly low motivation. Staying in bed until 2pm doesn't really count as lazy when you only went to sleep at 6am of the same morning. So my sleeping patterns are messed up. It's summer now, which means I'll become practically nocturnal Tuesday - Friday, and mess myself up even more. Assuming I managed to pass that exam (and if I didn't, I'll take it again), I'm going to see if I can do some work for next year's modules over the summer. There must be something I can do, right?


On a final note, anyone (and I doubt it's anyone...) who reads this may have noticed my first entry, where I stated I had a stalkerish person. Well, a friend of mine wanted to host my fanfic/s on his game review site, so he's set me up with a domain and a wordpress. Some things that don't go one here may be going up on there, so if you like my writing, take a look.

www.nightsister.com

That is all. I'm going to go curl up before my stomach explodes. Expect the next Fable fic (now named 'Shattered Darkness') update on Saturday at the earliest.