Friday the 13th...
Jan. 14th, 2012 03:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
blood_wingedHow was yours? Particularly unlucky?
I woke up to being screamed at that I hadn't done the dishes (because I'd overslept), went down to do them only to be told to go away, so I hid in the bathroom while mother did the dishes herself, crashing them around like they'd done something wrong. I then had a very paltry dinner of a bit of salmon and salad - you'd not think I was the only one in the house not on a diet. I've seen my mother for less than five minutes and she's spent half of that shouting at me, and the rest of it either ignoring me or speaking to me like she might throw something at me. I do the dishes when it's my turn, pretty much every time. I even do Amy's turn when she's out or not up (and Amy didn't even cover for me, thanks kid), and it seems to me that there's no point in my doing anything at all because whenever I forget just one time it's like I never do anything anyway.
Being lazy and being yelled at for it seems like it would be a lot easier on my confidence than doing things and having them completely brushed aside because one thing is forgotten.
I feel so distanced from my family here. They don't know me at all (to take the emo teen angle). My sister and my mother are very alike, they both like soaps, they both like (ew) Twilight, they both like to shop and all those girly things. Me, I'm a nerd. I like Star Trek and computers, and politics and history. Things that mother won't even humour me about. I'm just stuck inside my own head. It's a bit depressing really.
Also my lady week, as![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
nasty_show calls it, started today, and I was curled up for four hours with crippling cramp before the painkillers kicked in.. or it went away on its own, I don't know.
I woke up to being screamed at that I hadn't done the dishes (because I'd overslept), went down to do them only to be told to go away, so I hid in the bathroom while mother did the dishes herself, crashing them around like they'd done something wrong. I then had a very paltry dinner of a bit of salmon and salad - you'd not think I was the only one in the house not on a diet. I've seen my mother for less than five minutes and she's spent half of that shouting at me, and the rest of it either ignoring me or speaking to me like she might throw something at me. I do the dishes when it's my turn, pretty much every time. I even do Amy's turn when she's out or not up (and Amy didn't even cover for me, thanks kid), and it seems to me that there's no point in my doing anything at all because whenever I forget just one time it's like I never do anything anyway.
Being lazy and being yelled at for it seems like it would be a lot easier on my confidence than doing things and having them completely brushed aside because one thing is forgotten.
I feel so distanced from my family here. They don't know me at all (to take the emo teen angle). My sister and my mother are very alike, they both like soaps, they both like (ew) Twilight, they both like to shop and all those girly things. Me, I'm a nerd. I like Star Trek and computers, and politics and history. Things that mother won't even humour me about. I'm just stuck inside my own head. It's a bit depressing really.
Also my lady week, as
nasty_show calls it, started today, and I was curled up for four hours with crippling cramp before the painkillers kicked in.. or it went away on its own, I don't know.
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Date: 2012-01-14 03:37 am (UTC)That sucks about your family. I feel similarly about my dad. I don't connect with him at all, but unlike you and your mom, I think I don't get along with my dad because we are so alike in all the bad ways. DX
But anyway, I'm a nerd and I like Star Trek and history and politics. I'm pretty sure most people on LJ are that way too. You're in good company if you wish to chat. :)
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Date: 2012-01-14 03:58 am (UTC)My mum and dad divorced 18 years ago. What does that tell ya? >.<;
I'd love to talk to you but you're never onliiiine :V
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Date: 2012-01-14 05:04 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-01-14 05:42 pm (UTC)My AIM is littlebritteacup D:
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Date: 2012-01-14 03:47 am (UTC)Overreaction over dishes, much!!! D= Even worse during TTotM!
/snuggles
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Date: 2012-01-14 03:56 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-01-14 05:19 am (UTC)<333333
I'm sorry today was sucky for you, bb. <3333
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Date: 2012-01-14 05:28 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2012-01-14 04:23 pm (UTC)