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Jan. 19th, 2011 07:07 pmI want to put my knee to that bastard's face for hurting my sister.
*ANGRYFACE*
So I woke up at 8.30...
Correction, I was woken at 8.30... after sleeping for an hour... to sit around all day waiting for a package that never came. Kinda pissed about that.
One good point, however, was that I hopped onto Skype with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
plextral ... who spent ten minutes having gigglefits over my accent.
My accent is not that funny ._.
It's actually not funny at all.
Correction, I was woken at 8.30... after sleeping for an hour... to sit around all day waiting for a package that never came. Kinda pissed about that.
One good point, however, was that I hopped onto Skype with
plextral ... who spent ten minutes having gigglefits over my accent.My accent is not that funny ._.
It's actually not funny at all.
Dear Mother,
Aug. 6th, 2010 05:48 pmI'm sorry I don't fit into the neat little image of what you think I should be like. You can push and poke all you want but I'm never going to, so I guess I'm always going to be a failure to you. Do you have any idea how much it hurts to feel as if your own mother thinks you're worthless? I am not antisocial, I am not unreliable, and I am not lazy, I am an intelligent, sensitive and responsible young woman who you don't understand.
I have friends, and just because I've never met them it doesn't make them any less real to me. The guy I love lives in another country, but does that make the fact that he loves me back false? No, it doesn't, but you would tell me I'm being ridiculous. Do you have any idea how demeaning it is, to have your feelings trivialised by your own mother?
You want me to get a job. Sure, I can see the logic in it, but that doesn't mean I need, or want one. Perhaps you 'need' me to have one, to convince yourself that I'm not as weird as you thought, because really I think the money is a trivial thing. You never asked me for money when I was working in college, even though I offered. Why is wanting to be happy the 'wrong attitude'? Why is wanting to wait until I feel ready to work, instead of jumping in and being miserable the 'wrong attitude'? I'm not like you, mother, I didn't finish school and go straight into work, I want to go further than spending the rest of my life behind a desk in an office working with people I can't stand but act nicely to to their face.
I don't want to be like you. I don't want to work myself to the limit of my endurance. Sure, I might be poor, but I'll be happy, and I'll be doing what I want, not what you expect.
Most of all, I'm sorry that I don't have the courage to say all of this to your face.
I have friends, and just because I've never met them it doesn't make them any less real to me. The guy I love lives in another country, but does that make the fact that he loves me back false? No, it doesn't, but you would tell me I'm being ridiculous. Do you have any idea how demeaning it is, to have your feelings trivialised by your own mother?
You want me to get a job. Sure, I can see the logic in it, but that doesn't mean I need, or want one. Perhaps you 'need' me to have one, to convince yourself that I'm not as weird as you thought, because really I think the money is a trivial thing. You never asked me for money when I was working in college, even though I offered. Why is wanting to be happy the 'wrong attitude'? Why is wanting to wait until I feel ready to work, instead of jumping in and being miserable the 'wrong attitude'? I'm not like you, mother, I didn't finish school and go straight into work, I want to go further than spending the rest of my life behind a desk in an office working with people I can't stand but act nicely to to their face.
I don't want to be like you. I don't want to work myself to the limit of my endurance. Sure, I might be poor, but I'll be happy, and I'll be doing what I want, not what you expect.
Most of all, I'm sorry that I don't have the courage to say all of this to your face.
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May. 26th, 2010 09:25 pmNe, ne, ne, ne~ My plants are still growing!
( Pics~ )
Look at them grooooow >w<;
But on to other things, I have this huge pile of manga to read. I actually own a lot of manga and books that I haven't read yet. Sob...
( Book towers! D: )
Surprisingly (or not, depending on how well you know me), that pile of books doesn't even amount to half of the books I own. Derp. Some of those have been sitting around waiting to be read for at least two years. I really should get to them, I've done barely any reading for pleasure in the past three years and I used to enjoy reading so much.. D:
I really don't know what happened.
Maybe it was broadband internet.
Probably.
Bob is doing well.
( Bob~ )
Yes, it was me who wrote 'Bob' on the pot.
( Pics~ )
Look at them grooooow >w<;
But on to other things, I have this huge pile of manga to read. I actually own a lot of manga and books that I haven't read yet. Sob...
( Book towers! D: )
Surprisingly (or not, depending on how well you know me), that pile of books doesn't even amount to half of the books I own. Derp. Some of those have been sitting around waiting to be read for at least two years. I really should get to them, I've done barely any reading for pleasure in the past three years and I used to enjoy reading so much.. D:
I really don't know what happened.
Maybe it was broadband internet.
Probably.
Bob is doing well.
( Bob~ )
Yes, it was me who wrote 'Bob' on the pot.
Wtf, England.
May. 21st, 2010 03:13 pmIggy must be having hot flashes. It's managed to get up to 28 degrees (that's 83 degrees for all you Fahrenheit users) outside, and about 25 inside. You wouldn't think three degrees would make a big difference but man is it hot out there. Seriously. I'm British, I'm not built for this kind of crap.
But, taking advantage of the nice weather I went outside and took some pictures of flowers. When I was younger, I used to get a terrible rash from skin contact with grass. I hoped I might have grown out of it. Turns out I haven't.
(Click to enlarge...)
My arms itch.
=/
But, taking advantage of the nice weather I went outside and took some pictures of flowers. When I was younger, I used to get a terrible rash from skin contact with grass. I hoped I might have grown out of it. Turns out I haven't.
(Click to enlarge...)
My arms itch.
=/
